I'm pretty sure last night's events came straight from the devil's mind... there is no other reasonable explanation as to why josh completely flipped out at me and ended our friendship. I know that sounds really childish, but we actually aren't friends anymore...He spazzed out on me last night. I want to post our conversation here but that would be so incredibly wrong... hmmm... must... not... post...
Okay, I give in. Here's parts of it:
Josh: can you tell me one time you've been there for me? a time when you called me to get together. a time when it was you thinking of me, not the other way around. tell me a time you initiated something.
Yadda yadda yadda...
(Alright, now for those of you that KNOW Josh, COMPLETELY DISREGARD THIS NEXT SECTION. That is, if you're as horrible a friend as I am and didn't already know... yeah that was sarcasm.)
Josh: do you even know i'm depressed? do you know i've been suicidal for over two years? do you know i was hospitalised? did you even notice when i was gone? would you notice if i was gone?
(Okay.. #1.. I can't read minds, how the HELL am I supposed to know anything when you don't even talk to me anymore... #2... I HATE when people play the suicide card. Sorry if that sounds unsympathetic or bitchy.)
Anyways, to make a long story short, the conversation ended with him saying:
Y08 know nothing about me and you made no effort to fix that. I hate you for that. I hate you.
And he left.
Of course I was bawling my eyes out. This is the guy I've known since I was 4 and would never intentionally do anything to make him hate me. If we were standing face to face I doubt he would have said that to me....
